As a second grader, Raymond John could be found rebelling against the reins of life. Peeing in the front yard after getting off the school bus, disobeying his mother, and learning to hunt are just a few of the hobbies he pursued in his early years.
Sixteen years later he has accomplished three years of studying at The Ohio State University in the field of finance and entrepreneurship, and has managed to find time to create and start his own business concept. Additionally, he dabbles in the stock market finding innovative ways to invest his hard earned dollars.
Raymond grew up living in the desolate farm and hillbilly infested, Mansfield, Ohio. In elementary he quickly made friends with Henny Penny. HP, a chicken with a passion for life, spent her time on planet earth frolicking with Raymond in their backyard.
Tragically, their time was cut short when Raymond's family dog, Sebastien, took a bite out of her. Raymond was devastated over his loss, but said to his mother, "the chicken and the dog got into a fight, and the best one lost...i would have felt better if we could have ate her."
Moving on from twisted younger years, Raymond has continued to excel in hunting small and large game. Stopping the beating hearts of innocent creatures gives him enormous amounts of pleasure almost equivalent to the modern day orgasm. One of his favorite reflections of hunting is from his trip to Africa where he wounded a 1,000 lb. Kudu, and watched it fall down the mountain alive. He then murdered it using three more bullets, one at point blank range to the heart. His words to describe his kill were "exhilarating and tragic."
Upon entering final quarter of his sophomore year at Ohio State University he met his girlfriend, Danielle. After riding in a taxi home from Lodge Bar together, they have been inseparable for almost a year. In Raymonds free time he enjoys: laughing, tickling, making fun of, torturing, and throwing the tiny Danielle in weird places. He finds it relaxing, and is happy that has found someone who puts up with his lovable bullshit.
He also enjoys taking care of the tiny one that she is. It makes him feel like he is doing volunteer work when he carries Danielle's lifeless body to her bed after she has had too much to drink. All in all, he refers to his relationship as "healthy and normal."
Raymond hopes to continue being tall, goofy and professional for many days to come. He does not plan on growing up until he is 30 years old.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Life in the fast lane.
Sit back and enjoy the show! That's what they say in show business, but it should also be a slogan for my life. I swear if I could get paid for every time someone laughs at something I do or say, I would be a millionaire. I guess that means I should be a comedian, but Im not much for cracking jokes. I just live my life, and somehow everyone finds humor in it somewhere. It gets me.
Today I have accomplished eating some shitty food, taking a final exam, and napping. Im quite the star let me tell you. I wish I could have accomplished all the things I actually wanted to do today. Such as putting my money in the bank, cleaning my room and Sully's cage(my hero of a parakeet), and studying for more finals. Im 0-4 and it is 6p.m., that "stuff" is not getting done.
Today I have accomplished eating some shitty food, taking a final exam, and napping. Im quite the star let me tell you. I wish I could have accomplished all the things I actually wanted to do today. Such as putting my money in the bank, cleaning my room and Sully's cage(my hero of a parakeet), and studying for more finals. Im 0-4 and it is 6p.m., that "stuff" is not getting done.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Checking out some blogs :)
Over the last week I have been dabbling into cyberspace looking at multiple different blogs that were recommended to me. Among my favorites were PR-Squared.com, MPdailyfix.com and sethgodin.typepad.com. All three of these blogs captured me with with their layouts, and easy to read postings. They all managed to maintain readability even though the information being conveyed was strictly professional.
PR-Squared, a blog written by Todd Defren was my favorite, because even though the author is a a global innovator of social media and public relations he managed to keep humor and sarcasm in his writing to make it seem more down to earth. Also, the format was entertaining and he offered pictures to demonstrate what he was talking about.It is very likely that I will continue to use and read this blog, because I found myself highly informed of various marketing techniques which could in turn be useful to me in the professional world.
Another entertaining and interesting concept in a blog was Mpdailyfix.com. Mpdailyfix is a blog ran by marketing professionals and contributors that give actionable how-to's to help anyone better market their product or service. I liked this blog because it ranged widely in information, and is written by many different contributors. The format also was laid out nice, I could easily find where I wanted to go. Also, if anyone likes a particular contributors blog posts more than others, all of the writers have links down the right hand side to navigate to just their posts quickly and easily. This blog would be extremely helpful to me someday to learn how to market a product better.
The third and final blog I found entertaining was Seth Godin's blog. Godin is a best selling author and famous man in the marketing industry. He offers witty blog posts about starting your own business, and he answers questions that most people think about but do not know the correct answer too. Overall his blog is him being him. He does not try to make it sound professional. In any post that I read of his it sounded like I was the one writing it, and I loved that about him. I think I would also like to keep reading his blog just for the knowledge he gives out in his posts. When I saw him post about political tv advertisements I was immediately drawn in. Those ads drive me nuts before elections, but I did not know they were a marketing strategy to get people not to vote until I read his blog.
The reason I chose these three blogs to read over many of the others was because I related to them. If I am going to sit down and read other peoples opinions I want to relate to them most of all. Secondly, they were easy to navigate through. Most of the ones I chose to read were ones that I could scroll down to keep reading, instead of just looking at blogs that had links to other websites every other sentence.
I gained a lot out of the experience of looking at others blogs, and many of them I will continue to periodically check out again.
PR-Squared, a blog written by Todd Defren was my favorite, because even though the author is a a global innovator of social media and public relations he managed to keep humor and sarcasm in his writing to make it seem more down to earth. Also, the format was entertaining and he offered pictures to demonstrate what he was talking about.It is very likely that I will continue to use and read this blog, because I found myself highly informed of various marketing techniques which could in turn be useful to me in the professional world.
Another entertaining and interesting concept in a blog was Mpdailyfix.com. Mpdailyfix is a blog ran by marketing professionals and contributors that give actionable how-to's to help anyone better market their product or service. I liked this blog because it ranged widely in information, and is written by many different contributors. The format also was laid out nice, I could easily find where I wanted to go. Also, if anyone likes a particular contributors blog posts more than others, all of the writers have links down the right hand side to navigate to just their posts quickly and easily. This blog would be extremely helpful to me someday to learn how to market a product better.
The third and final blog I found entertaining was Seth Godin's blog. Godin is a best selling author and famous man in the marketing industry. He offers witty blog posts about starting your own business, and he answers questions that most people think about but do not know the correct answer too. Overall his blog is him being him. He does not try to make it sound professional. In any post that I read of his it sounded like I was the one writing it, and I loved that about him. I think I would also like to keep reading his blog just for the knowledge he gives out in his posts. When I saw him post about political tv advertisements I was immediately drawn in. Those ads drive me nuts before elections, but I did not know they were a marketing strategy to get people not to vote until I read his blog.
The reason I chose these three blogs to read over many of the others was because I related to them. If I am going to sit down and read other peoples opinions I want to relate to them most of all. Secondly, they were easy to navigate through. Most of the ones I chose to read were ones that I could scroll down to keep reading, instead of just looking at blogs that had links to other websites every other sentence.
I gained a lot out of the experience of looking at others blogs, and many of them I will continue to periodically check out again.
Monday, October 11, 2010
A New Outlook on Twitter
For the last week, I have spent many random times throughout the day exploring the social media website, Twitter. Before being assigned an assignment in my communications class to do so, I considered Twitter to be a useless imitation of Facebook. From my personal standpoint, I found it a nuisance, wasting my time, signing on and posting my thoughts. I had it in my mind that I did not care about celebrity lives, or what anyone else was doing. This made me think to myself, if i do not care, why would anyone care what I am doing? However, after really getting to know the use and functions of Twitter, I am almost positive that I will continue to network and utilize the various functions of the site.
My first natural thought when I began making a new connection with the site was, "how do i use this?" I began running through all of the settings, and figuring out how to operate the retweets, messaging capabilities, timeline and @mentions. After that, I discovered one of my favorite parts about Twitter that differed from Facebook was the wallpaper and customization options. It fascinated me that I was able to tailor my own personal page to fit my personality. One thing I found annoying was that you cannot upload albums of pictures for people to see. When I see a great place, a new restaurant, or just a good fun time, i love to upload pictures from my camera to show people. Only being able to upload one picture to a post was somewhat frustrating.
In my opinion, Twitter has both good professional and personal values for others and me. Twitter has personal value to me because it gave me the opportunity to share my thoughts and get things off of my mind. It was a good way for me to vent, and a lot of times fellow Tweeter's would relate to it and message me back, or retweet what I had to say. Another good thing it did for me was show commonalities between my classmates and I. Kayla Rose, another student in my communications 634 class tweeted, "Growing up is SCARY. So many big decisions to make. Grad school or job? Ohio or the unknown? I want to know where I'll be in 8 mos!" As soon as I read her post, I thought to myself that I was in the exact same position and was glad to know Im not alone in feeling the same feelings.
More so than a personal value, Twitter has an enormous amount of professional values that come with it. After beginning on my Twitter journey, I realized there was far more to it than just posting thoughts. Major Forbes 500 companies have been using Twitter recently to post job opportunities, internships and important information about their companies. For example: ColumbusAMA, a premier marketing firm located in the city, posted, "Looking for a job? Our next Job Transition Group meeting is three weeks from today (10/26). RSVP here! http://bit.ly/AMAjt1010." Local businesses are also branching out and following locals to share information and news about the city of Columbus. ColumbusPlaces is a Twitter page completely devoted to retweets of people participating in activities, places, and events to see. I posted during the last week that my boyfriend had surprised me on Sunday by taking me to the Professional Bull Riders Invitational at Nationwide Arena, and ColumbusPlaces picked up my tweet and posted it to their page.
The Twitter pages that I enjoyed following the most, and would recommend to anyone were The Columbus Dispatch, The Lantern and Columbus Internships. The newspapers provided me with attractive and news worthy headlines. I found this to be beneficial, because to me it seemed like a faster way to gain important news fast in just one sentence. Columbus Internships caught my eye because I am a senior, and getting as many internships as possible is one of my goals before graduation. Prior to the Twitter assignment, I had never even heard of Columbus Internships and was thankful to find such a helpful organization through Twitter.
Ultimately what I learned from Twitter is that it is a very good marketing strategy. A place to market yourself, your company and anything your passionate about. If anyone can take the time to sit down and learn how to utilize Twitter, it can become a very powerful and important tool personally and professionally
My first natural thought when I began making a new connection with the site was, "how do i use this?" I began running through all of the settings, and figuring out how to operate the retweets, messaging capabilities, timeline and @mentions. After that, I discovered one of my favorite parts about Twitter that differed from Facebook was the wallpaper and customization options. It fascinated me that I was able to tailor my own personal page to fit my personality. One thing I found annoying was that you cannot upload albums of pictures for people to see. When I see a great place, a new restaurant, or just a good fun time, i love to upload pictures from my camera to show people. Only being able to upload one picture to a post was somewhat frustrating.
In my opinion, Twitter has both good professional and personal values for others and me. Twitter has personal value to me because it gave me the opportunity to share my thoughts and get things off of my mind. It was a good way for me to vent, and a lot of times fellow Tweeter's would relate to it and message me back, or retweet what I had to say. Another good thing it did for me was show commonalities between my classmates and I. Kayla Rose, another student in my communications 634 class tweeted, "Growing up is SCARY. So many big decisions to make. Grad school or job? Ohio or the unknown? I want to know where I'll be in 8 mos!" As soon as I read her post, I thought to myself that I was in the exact same position and was glad to know Im not alone in feeling the same feelings.
More so than a personal value, Twitter has an enormous amount of professional values that come with it. After beginning on my Twitter journey, I realized there was far more to it than just posting thoughts. Major Forbes 500 companies have been using Twitter recently to post job opportunities, internships and important information about their companies. For example: ColumbusAMA, a premier marketing firm located in the city, posted, "Looking for a job? Our next Job Transition Group meeting is three weeks from today (10/26). RSVP here! http://bit.ly/AMAjt1010." Local businesses are also branching out and following locals to share information and news about the city of Columbus. ColumbusPlaces is a Twitter page completely devoted to retweets of people participating in activities, places, and events to see. I posted during the last week that my boyfriend had surprised me on Sunday by taking me to the Professional Bull Riders Invitational at Nationwide Arena, and ColumbusPlaces picked up my tweet and posted it to their page.
The Twitter pages that I enjoyed following the most, and would recommend to anyone were The Columbus Dispatch, The Lantern and Columbus Internships. The newspapers provided me with attractive and news worthy headlines. I found this to be beneficial, because to me it seemed like a faster way to gain important news fast in just one sentence. Columbus Internships caught my eye because I am a senior, and getting as many internships as possible is one of my goals before graduation. Prior to the Twitter assignment, I had never even heard of Columbus Internships and was thankful to find such a helpful organization through Twitter.
Ultimately what I learned from Twitter is that it is a very good marketing strategy. A place to market yourself, your company and anything your passionate about. If anyone can take the time to sit down and learn how to utilize Twitter, it can become a very powerful and important tool personally and professionally
Monday, May 24, 2010
Does a smile count when I say Im wearing a new accessory in life?
Its funny how life changes in the blink of an eye. One minute you could be down about the world around you, and the next moment flying the sky like a Boeing 747 jet. You never know when someone or something is going to drop into your life, and make you smile from the inside out. I cant say much about my life in the past few months because my world has turned inside out from meeting one person I cannot live without. I was in a place so dark from reality in the beginning of this year, that thinking about how to get back to who I used to be seemed useless. Going to bed at night, I would cry to god, more like surrender myself to him in hopes of becoming the person I once used to be. After bad experiences, I wondered everyday if I would be able to love someone again. Having my heart broken countless times by my dad, and boyfriend after boyfriend, I was hesitant to believe that I would ever be able to let anyone in again. Then Ray came into my life. Suddenly, I didnt feel like it was just me in the world ...
Just saying his name made me smile, but the thought of seeing him everyday was what made me wake up with a smile. I would wake up, and the first thing on my mind would be...when is that silly boy gonna text me? I felt bad because when I met him I was scared of him. It had been since September that I could look a guy and feel excited to get to know him. After going such a long time and feeling nothing, I wondered how I was able to feel that way again, and whether to let him into my life. I played dumb card with him because of this. I was completely crazy about him, but I told him I only wanted his friendship. I told him everything about my life when he thought he was just my friend, and when I realized that he knew mostly everything and was still by my side willing to listen...there was no way I could just be his friend.
Normally, Im scared to tell people where I come from. Like, how wrecked I am for my dads mistakes, how sad I can be sometimes, how much anxiety and fear I have about life, how completely backwards my thoughts on life are, how ignorant I am to the things I say, how I try to have a plan for everything, how I live in the future and not day to day, how much I dream of better days, how I am immature occasionally, and how I laugh at anything serious...the weird thing about all this is...I was never scared to tell him anything, and Im still not. Better yet, he loves me through all of this. To this day I still dont understand, but I am so in love with him.
Usually I don't let myself think for a long time, because I tend to over analyze every little detail in my life. When I over analyze,that generally leads me to pulling myself away from everyone. However, tonight Im just sitting here with him, and I cant help but to look over at him and think to myself just how happy I am. He looks so serious doing his homework, but occasionally he looks over this way and smiles. Probably the best part of my every night is seeing him smile...and knowing in my heart that he makes me feel the very same way.
Forever and Always, Danielle
Just saying his name made me smile, but the thought of seeing him everyday was what made me wake up with a smile. I would wake up, and the first thing on my mind would be...when is that silly boy gonna text me? I felt bad because when I met him I was scared of him. It had been since September that I could look a guy and feel excited to get to know him. After going such a long time and feeling nothing, I wondered how I was able to feel that way again, and whether to let him into my life. I played dumb card with him because of this. I was completely crazy about him, but I told him I only wanted his friendship. I told him everything about my life when he thought he was just my friend, and when I realized that he knew mostly everything and was still by my side willing to listen...there was no way I could just be his friend.
Normally, Im scared to tell people where I come from. Like, how wrecked I am for my dads mistakes, how sad I can be sometimes, how much anxiety and fear I have about life, how completely backwards my thoughts on life are, how ignorant I am to the things I say, how I try to have a plan for everything, how I live in the future and not day to day, how much I dream of better days, how I am immature occasionally, and how I laugh at anything serious...the weird thing about all this is...I was never scared to tell him anything, and Im still not. Better yet, he loves me through all of this. To this day I still dont understand, but I am so in love with him.
Usually I don't let myself think for a long time, because I tend to over analyze every little detail in my life. When I over analyze,that generally leads me to pulling myself away from everyone. However, tonight Im just sitting here with him, and I cant help but to look over at him and think to myself just how happy I am. He looks so serious doing his homework, but occasionally he looks over this way and smiles. Probably the best part of my every night is seeing him smile...and knowing in my heart that he makes me feel the very same way.
Forever and Always, Danielle
Monday, March 8, 2010
the common fallacy
Why is it ingrained into every girls head to rush into getting married? I was just listening to a conversation I walked in on strolling through my sorority house. It started off like this, "i just want to get married." I was casually walking, heard that, and then came to a dead stop. WTFFFF is the obsession? I walk over there and my friend who I love dearly is sitting on the couch...covered in wedding magazines!? "Danielle, I just want to get married," she says. It took all I had not to laugh at her. She goes on to tell me about her perfect guy, the perfect wedding, and how she wants a $50,000 wedding ring before she is graduated from college. Holy shit balls! That is a fuck ton of money, is she insane? No guy in their right mind(at least I hope) would ever spend that much...unless your Mariah Carey. In that case, with that name and voice, you get what you want I guess. Haha. It just took me by surprise that she would be talking about this when she is a junior in college. I mean, yeah come on...we were all little girls looking at our parents wedding pictures, and then scoping men on tv to be our husbands. Technically, by now I believe I have over 50 husbands. I played the marriage game with every little neighbor boy I could find back in the day...I was a lil trollop in my prime childhood, my mom probably thought I was a mormon practicing polygamy. She looked out the window everyday to me picking dandelions, having my baby brother walk me down the sidewalk, and marry a different boy. Hahaha. It must have been grand.
Somewhere along the line though, I gained my consciousness with life. GETTING MARRIED IS NO JOKE. Nowadays, most people might see marriage as being synonamous with the phrase, "Game over." I do sometimes, not gonna lie. Its not that Im a slutty, its just that Im not gonna be another statistic added to the divorce rate. Divorce in my book is synonmous with, "you suck at life, or the person you married does." I just know that when I get married, Im gonna do it right, no bullshit. If it takes me 10 more years or 2 years, i'll do it. Time shouldnt be an issue with a decision that is going to affect the rest of your life. It seems to me that a lot of my sorority sisters are dead set with meeting someone before they graduate college. I dont think they understand how hard it is though. You cant just date the first guy who looks at you the right way...and who even says the person you're gonna marry is even at this college? There are 498749863 colleges across the world, and he may be cruising those stomping grounds instead. Maybe i have a distorted view of marriage, because my parents went through a really rough divorce...but I still have a great perception of it all. I still think marriage is a great thing, and that it CAN be wonderful. Girls and guys dont realize how much WORK(yes i said, work) it is though. Its like a second job. You have to constantly be working at it, or it will fall apart. When someone gets married, they have to understand that...yes they may have a daytime job, but as soon as they come home they have a PM shift in marriage. The person you marry shouldnt make it seem like work, but once you exchange "I do's" it is that way subconsciously.
A second common misconception of the whole marriage idea with girls is...THERE IS NO PERFECT GUY OUT THERE. I dont care how much anyone tries to talk their man up, its complete and utter bullshit. Every guy you will find has little habits that make you want to cringe after you endure them for so long. Examples: Chewing with their mouth open, burping, farting, peeing with the bathroom door open for the world to see, smoking way too much pot, biting their nails, spitting like a baseball player on the pitchers mound, acting immature with guy friends, lighting stuff on fire, being lazy, working out excessively, or being insensitive...you get the idea. Im not tryin to demoralize men, because women have habits too. After any guy dates a girl for a long enough time he will find something she does occasionally to be annoying. Examples: Taking a generous amount of time to get ready to go anywhere, spraying purfume excessively, stealing the covers in bed at night, wanting to cuddle after sex when a guy just wants to sleep, being moody, buying shit loads of stuff she doesnt need...etc. No one person is perfect, so nobody can search for someone with every quality they want. I posted a blog earlier in the week with the qualities I look for in a man, but thats a ridiculous dream/wish and I know it. I could find a guy with every quality I asked for, but even he is gonna have a flaw. I wish my sorority girls understood this. No "jesus" is gonna pop out of the woodwork.
My sorority sisters need to chill out with the marriage talk, and focus on school. Searching for the "man nirvana" is a huge distraction, and will only delay a true relationship from forming. The way boys and girls should approach the subject from my standpoint is...Dont look for the perfect person to marry, the situation will find you. There is a complete difference between lust and love, and you want to be sure what you have is real. Your life partner could be your best friend, an acquintance, or a stranger. You also want to be established with your own life enough, to let someone else in. Someone else cant bring you joy, you have to be content with yourself first. Dont expect lavish things(i.e. $50,000 ring) because those kinds of luxuries wont bring you true happiness, finding love that will remain until you're old and pass away will bring you happiness. Everyone has to keep that in mind.
Jeez...all this time, I thought I came to a college where smart and educated people surrounded me. I didnt know I had all these people who are so obsessed with something that they have a false perception of. Haha.
Forever and Always, Danielle
Somewhere along the line though, I gained my consciousness with life. GETTING MARRIED IS NO JOKE. Nowadays, most people might see marriage as being synonamous with the phrase, "Game over." I do sometimes, not gonna lie. Its not that Im a slutty, its just that Im not gonna be another statistic added to the divorce rate. Divorce in my book is synonmous with, "you suck at life, or the person you married does." I just know that when I get married, Im gonna do it right, no bullshit. If it takes me 10 more years or 2 years, i'll do it. Time shouldnt be an issue with a decision that is going to affect the rest of your life. It seems to me that a lot of my sorority sisters are dead set with meeting someone before they graduate college. I dont think they understand how hard it is though. You cant just date the first guy who looks at you the right way...and who even says the person you're gonna marry is even at this college? There are 498749863 colleges across the world, and he may be cruising those stomping grounds instead. Maybe i have a distorted view of marriage, because my parents went through a really rough divorce...but I still have a great perception of it all. I still think marriage is a great thing, and that it CAN be wonderful. Girls and guys dont realize how much WORK(yes i said, work) it is though. Its like a second job. You have to constantly be working at it, or it will fall apart. When someone gets married, they have to understand that...yes they may have a daytime job, but as soon as they come home they have a PM shift in marriage. The person you marry shouldnt make it seem like work, but once you exchange "I do's" it is that way subconsciously.
A second common misconception of the whole marriage idea with girls is...THERE IS NO PERFECT GUY OUT THERE. I dont care how much anyone tries to talk their man up, its complete and utter bullshit. Every guy you will find has little habits that make you want to cringe after you endure them for so long. Examples: Chewing with their mouth open, burping, farting, peeing with the bathroom door open for the world to see, smoking way too much pot, biting their nails, spitting like a baseball player on the pitchers mound, acting immature with guy friends, lighting stuff on fire, being lazy, working out excessively, or being insensitive...you get the idea. Im not tryin to demoralize men, because women have habits too. After any guy dates a girl for a long enough time he will find something she does occasionally to be annoying. Examples: Taking a generous amount of time to get ready to go anywhere, spraying purfume excessively, stealing the covers in bed at night, wanting to cuddle after sex when a guy just wants to sleep, being moody, buying shit loads of stuff she doesnt need...etc. No one person is perfect, so nobody can search for someone with every quality they want. I posted a blog earlier in the week with the qualities I look for in a man, but thats a ridiculous dream/wish and I know it. I could find a guy with every quality I asked for, but even he is gonna have a flaw. I wish my sorority girls understood this. No "jesus" is gonna pop out of the woodwork.
My sorority sisters need to chill out with the marriage talk, and focus on school. Searching for the "man nirvana" is a huge distraction, and will only delay a true relationship from forming. The way boys and girls should approach the subject from my standpoint is...Dont look for the perfect person to marry, the situation will find you. There is a complete difference between lust and love, and you want to be sure what you have is real. Your life partner could be your best friend, an acquintance, or a stranger. You also want to be established with your own life enough, to let someone else in. Someone else cant bring you joy, you have to be content with yourself first. Dont expect lavish things(i.e. $50,000 ring) because those kinds of luxuries wont bring you true happiness, finding love that will remain until you're old and pass away will bring you happiness. Everyone has to keep that in mind.
Jeez...all this time, I thought I came to a college where smart and educated people surrounded me. I didnt know I had all these people who are so obsessed with something that they have a false perception of. Haha.
Forever and Always, Danielle
Sweet summer lover
Today was a relatively warm day in the heart of Ohio. Waking up this morning the only thing I could think of was sweet summertime! Oh how I cant wait to be raising hell on Lake Erie in 3 months. I miss the smell of the lake, the wind that blows a perfect tan onto any pasty person, and boating(safely of course! r.i.p. ben). Let the shit show of summer come back into my life. RIGHT NOW!
Besides being overly amped for summer to start, one thing is on my mind since last night...and will be every day until then...FLOWRIDER COMPETITIONNNNNNNNNNN time is here!!! Thats right, look out bitches because Im coming to strut my shit and take my ticket to semi's. I might have been a dumb ass the previous year and walked through a construction zone in flip flops and put a rod through my foot before qualifying round...but no more! I am back in black(pink, really.) and ready to rage. Flatspins, 360's, barrels...I got that shit. Stand-up? Oh fuck yes...1080's, stall's = im all over it. Its gonna be fantastic.
Better yet...boss man is getting me some rooms for my friends, anddd Im gonna be doll and take them to Kalahari to play in the waterpark andddd Cedar Point because I can get tix:) I dare for someone to tell me that its gonna be a bad weekend.
Besides being overly amped for summer to start, one thing is on my mind since last night...and will be every day until then...FLOWRIDER COMPETITIONNNNNNNNNNN time is here!!! Thats right, look out bitches because Im coming to strut my shit and take my ticket to semi's. I might have been a dumb ass the previous year and walked through a construction zone in flip flops and put a rod through my foot before qualifying round...but no more! I am back in black(pink, really.) and ready to rage. Flatspins, 360's, barrels...I got that shit. Stand-up? Oh fuck yes...1080's, stall's = im all over it. Its gonna be fantastic.
Better yet...boss man is getting me some rooms for my friends, anddd Im gonna be doll and take them to Kalahari to play in the waterpark andddd Cedar Point because I can get tix:) I dare for someone to tell me that its gonna be a bad weekend.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
your moves are sick girl!
Now before I say this…I want everyone to know that I am NOT SUICIDAL. I am perfectly happy with my life, I just sometimes find myself thinking deeper than the people that surround me day to day. Have you ever thought to yourself...what would the world be like if you werent here? Would anyone miss you? Would you miss life? Would some people smile when they heard the news? Would people break down in misery? What perception do people have of you in their heads? I constantly find myself over analyzing my life, thinking philosophically about my existence. Who am I? Do people perceive me the same way I perceive myself? First of all...if everyone perceived me how I perceive myself I feel bad for them, because thats not a good way to think about someone. Haha. But seriously though, what I am doing in life?
I feel like most days I drag myself out of my bed, looking for something to tell me that I belong where I am. It’s like Im constantly looking for evidence to prove that the choices and attitudes I have assumed have actually gotten me somewhere. Today I had the best conversation with my boss from Kalahari. It made me realize, my life has a purpose. I have people who miss me when Im gone, even if I don’t always think of them directly in my head. My boss told me how much he misses my character in life. That I always had the ability to talk to children who have lost their parents and are scared shitless, put a smile on anyones face in general, and help people learn to surf. That made my day. I like being that girl that can turn anyones day around. I would bend over backwards for anyone at any given time, and I guess sometimes its just nice to know that someone thinks of me that very same way.
Carving the wave
Rocking it sideways. Banana ride.
My boss Chad and I. Hes amazing, im not gonna lie.
I feel like most days I drag myself out of my bed, looking for something to tell me that I belong where I am. It’s like Im constantly looking for evidence to prove that the choices and attitudes I have assumed have actually gotten me somewhere. Today I had the best conversation with my boss from Kalahari. It made me realize, my life has a purpose. I have people who miss me when Im gone, even if I don’t always think of them directly in my head. My boss told me how much he misses my character in life. That I always had the ability to talk to children who have lost their parents and are scared shitless, put a smile on anyones face in general, and help people learn to surf. That made my day. I like being that girl that can turn anyones day around. I would bend over backwards for anyone at any given time, and I guess sometimes its just nice to know that someone thinks of me that very same way.
Carving the wave
Rocking it sideways. Banana ride.
My boss Chad and I. Hes amazing, im not gonna lie.
Friday, March 5, 2010
This life is a mirage...
Its funny how sometimes you float through life like its a dream, and the next minute you're laying in your bed feeling every emotion you wondered if you had the capability to feel in the first place. The friends you thought were there for the long run are all gone, and the only person you have to rely on is yourself. Sometimes all you need is yourself, but most often we find ourselves drifting anywhere we can to feel that someone else out there in the world feels the same way we do about it. This morning I woke up feeling so displaced about my life. I laid in bed for about an hour staring at the ceiling thinking to myself...if there was one place where I could be right now where would it be? This is when I drifted back off to sleep and suddenly I was dreaming of the place where I feel most like me in the world.
For me...the place where I feel most like me is sitting on a rock in the middle of lake erie off of the pier. You might be thinking...out of all the places in the world I choose one right by my home. Being there is my sanctity. Sitting there I just think of all the beautiful things in life. I walk out there at night, and I watch the water crash around me and I can breathe because no one is watching me. I sing and dance, laugh and cry, write lyrics, and just feel what I want too. This spot that nobody knows of has been my secret for years. If I could go there anytime I felt my insecure about life, I would never be down. Since I was a sophomore in high school I have been visiting my place. Sometimes I feel like the spot where I sit knows more about me in life than anyone else.
For me...the place where I feel most like me is sitting on a rock in the middle of lake erie off of the pier. You might be thinking...out of all the places in the world I choose one right by my home. Being there is my sanctity. Sitting there I just think of all the beautiful things in life. I walk out there at night, and I watch the water crash around me and I can breathe because no one is watching me. I sing and dance, laugh and cry, write lyrics, and just feel what I want too. This spot that nobody knows of has been my secret for years. If I could go there anytime I felt my insecure about life, I would never be down. Since I was a sophomore in high school I have been visiting my place. Sometimes I feel like the spot where I sit knows more about me in life than anyone else.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
A single girls life!
Sooooo...lately it seems people from home have been asking me who I am dating, or if I am dating anyone. I dont know why people think they can be involved in every aspect of my personal life, but apparently its hot commodity. This post is to inform everyone that my status is...and will be for a hot minute...SINGLE.
HERE ARE MY REASONS WHY:
Im not ready to love, Im rocking my freedom/ single life out;)Im not over the ex completely, Im scared of getting hurt. Im doing just fine...why rock the boat?
I dont trust men because they all are equal scum. I have not found anyone that interests me, that likes me the same. Finally, Ive had love and it never turns out great, why would I jump back in? Enough said.
FOR THOSE CURIOUS SOULS OUT THERE...this is what i look for in a boyfriend...and these characteristics are def. not found in Columbus, OH.
A good boy with the bad bay edgyness. This includes a wardrobe of extremely preppy clothes(i.e. polos, sweaters, khakis, sperrys) HOWEVER pac sun must be included into this. (i.e. hurley, o'neill, fox, famous stars and straps, DC, chuck taylors) Yeah the works. Attitude wise, they have to be a well mannered guy. Pure and decent at heart...someone I can trust. With this guy...lying should never cross my mind. They have to be able to kick it chill though. If my guy is not willing to work out or jog with me...thats lazy and I want someone to have toSometimes, I just like to cuddle and watch tv. I need a hopeless romantic 50/50. I also need someone tough...I want the perfect blend. For me, my type is tall and skinny with not blonde, but not brown hair. Additionally, this person better love water. I live by the lake, and I am a water baby. If you cant swim..you aint gonna make it with me in the summer time. I jet ski, parasail, go tubing, boating, just everything...and I dont feel like having to carry a life jacket around with. That would just be a nuisance. Violence?? Well my perfect man better know how to fight for me, because I can fight my way out of a paper bag...but temper wise that better be the only time he gets in a fight. Violences scares me. One final characteristic my man must possess is a love and i mean a LOVE for music. They better be able to sing with me at all times on the fly, and dance if they need too;) Other than that...they need to be absolutely 100% attachment free of psycho ex's. hahaha. Well I cant be too picky:) See why you cant find those characteristics in college boys?! haha
Forever and Always, Danielle
HERE ARE MY REASONS WHY:
Im not ready to love, Im rocking my freedom/ single life out;)Im not over the ex completely, Im scared of getting hurt. Im doing just fine...why rock the boat?
I dont trust men because they all are equal scum. I have not found anyone that interests me, that likes me the same. Finally, Ive had love and it never turns out great, why would I jump back in? Enough said.
FOR THOSE CURIOUS SOULS OUT THERE...this is what i look for in a boyfriend...and these characteristics are def. not found in Columbus, OH.
A good boy with the bad bay edgyness. This includes a wardrobe of extremely preppy clothes(i.e. polos, sweaters, khakis, sperrys) HOWEVER pac sun must be included into this. (i.e. hurley, o'neill, fox, famous stars and straps, DC, chuck taylors) Yeah the works. Attitude wise, they have to be a well mannered guy. Pure and decent at heart...someone I can trust. With this guy...lying should never cross my mind. They have to be able to kick it chill though. If my guy is not willing to work out or jog with me...thats lazy and I want someone to have toSometimes, I just like to cuddle and watch tv. I need a hopeless romantic 50/50. I also need someone tough...I want the perfect blend. For me, my type is tall and skinny with not blonde, but not brown hair. Additionally, this person better love water. I live by the lake, and I am a water baby. If you cant swim..you aint gonna make it with me in the summer time. I jet ski, parasail, go tubing, boating, just everything...and I dont feel like having to carry a life jacket around with. That would just be a nuisance. Violence?? Well my perfect man better know how to fight for me, because I can fight my way out of a paper bag...but temper wise that better be the only time he gets in a fight. Violences scares me. One final characteristic my man must possess is a love and i mean a LOVE for music. They better be able to sing with me at all times on the fly, and dance if they need too;) Other than that...they need to be absolutely 100% attachment free of psycho ex's. hahaha. Well I cant be too picky:) See why you cant find those characteristics in college boys?! haha
Forever and Always, Danielle
a post i wrote in january on christmas break...
Being in a top sorority on campus has taught me many things such as…
1. putting on enough bronzer so that I look like im walking the victorias secret runway at all times
2. teasing my hair high enough to be a dolly parton look alike
3. reeling boys in close enough to smell my purfume then setting them free
4. making any other girl jealous of my life(even though she shouldn’t be)
5. how to get into a bar with a fake id flawlessly
6. how to be fake when I need to, and real at all other times
7. how to live on the wild side of life
8. heartbreak
9. breaking boys hearts and finallly….
10. consuming large amounts of alcohol til you blackout
I would say in my head that those 10 things would be enough to keep me away from whatever organization was helping me to achieve those qualities. However aside from those 10 things that may reinforce the stereotype of a sorority girl…there are many things people wouldn’t consider in their heads when thinking of a sorority.
I also learned…
1. how to be a good friend
2. things not to do, when your supposed to be a good friend
3. sisterhood, being more than just a friend
4. that doing community service brings everyone closer to their heart
5. love
6. boys are just fragments of our lives
7. studying is above all…haha mayyybe
8. never do something you wouldn’t want done to you
9. sorries mean nothing unless they are sincere
10. sorority is just a name for a close group of friends, that no one…and I mean no one will understand unless they are apart of the group.
You may ask…how did this girl gain all this knowledge? Well the truth be told. It came from a long discovery of who I really am. The word stereotype used to get to me…bad. Now, I don’t see it that way. People could stereotype me for just about anything…being white, pretty, ugly, attention, depression, suicidal, the nice girl, dumb, smart, fake, real. The word stereotype was invented in my opinion because some dumb ass was jealous of someone elses life…so in order to make that person mad, he generalized. “Oh well your just that stupid guy who is apart of lamda alpha suckit…I heard all them guys are douches…” In life, hearing those kinds of things said about you hurts. It gets to you. It make you think that you are less than who you are. I know hearing those things about me made me feel that way.
I know anyone who reads my shit knows…I have some serious depression issues. Aside from my heart condition that causes me to have anxiety, the depression I have comes from a more deeper issue than that…my life.
I grew up pretty normal until I was about 11. When I turned 11, my whole world in my eyes fell apart. I watched my dad leave on a business trip and never come home. I watched my mom cry everyday. I later learned he cheated on her 5 years into their mariage, and again the year before he left…up until he left. I literally was clueless on how to feel. I dealt with the pain surrounding me by keeping things inside. Crying was a word I knew of, but the action of crying never was acted out by me. On top of all of this…I left on a trip with my dad during the divorce period once he came back around, and I decided that I didn’t want to be away from home anymore so I begged … and I mean begged my dad to bring me back to my moms place. I thought that my dad was going to be sooo upset with me for asking him to bring me home to mom, but he wasn’t. I couldn’t figure that out. After all was said and done, I figured out why he wasn’t mad. He wanted to catch my mother on a date. He got what he wanted, but he didn’t have the temper to deal with what he wanted. He hit my mom knocked her over, and beat my moms date(almost leaving him lifeless). Violence, abandonment, lost trust, broken love…these are all things that a an 11 yr old should not see or feel, but I did. This is where my depression is rooted. I live in my past. I know im in the future, but the way I approach my life is that the past is gonna repeat itself. I know what you’re thinking…well if you know that, forget it…don’t be depressed and move on with your life. See the thing is, is that I don’t recognize it. These behaviors such as keeping my guard up are self conscious. They happen whether I want them too or not.
I came home this last week from college thinking I was gonna quit. I realized I needed a break when I had a bottle of pills in one hand and the other wiping tears from my eyes. I wanted to just give up. If I died all the horrible feelings that I have been feeling for awhile would just go away. I knew I didn’t want that, but what other choice did I have when I was choking to get words out because I couldn’t breathe. Then I thought…I have a choice to be happy. So I gave it up all at once. I came home to get happy. Little did I know that getting happy wasn’t just that easy. Giving up on all you know and quitting something that is gonna get you far in life like college isnt gonna make you happy. You make you happy. Nobody can make you feel down without your consent. This was my problem. I was letting everyone around me make me feel down.
I guess with depression you have your up and down days. I came home that’s when I really started thinking about my life, and what I could do to better it. I really thought that being in a sorority was stressing me out. However, I have such a loving group of girls who constantly blew my phone up while I was gone to make sure I was alright. Its my actions. I have to take responsibility and account for myself. The common fallacy is this…people like to follow the crowd, and that was just what I was doing. Getting wasted every night, doing everything with everyone else and not doing anything for myself. I need to love and be apart of my sorority, but learn to separate myself and get better.
Another thing that stressed me out completely, was AMR and WB. They constantly made fun of me for being a sorority girl, and maybe I am in certain ways, but that def is not all that I am. I am a good person with a good heart, and I was raised by the best mom in the entire world. I AM MORE THAN JUST A SORORITY GIRL. I don’t need them to constantly make fun of greek life. They most likely are just jealous they don’t understand it, or they are not apart of it. Anyways, fuck them on that situation…even though I love them dearly as friends.
Speaking of them, they prob saved my life a little when it came to fall semester. I was barreling myself down to the bottom with this dep/anx. It was horrible. I drank almost everyday, and ran myself into the ground. It was not until I reunited with all 3 of the boys at a bar that I realized I needed to be better than that.
Right now…my course of action is not about boys however. Its about happiness. I am totally reverting my life to get on the right track. I want to think happy, be happy, and act happy. All of which is gonna take some time, but I think I know how to get to the point. When I came home I saw my dr. about how seriously down I have been, and he is the man let me tell you. He put me on this natural plan to overcome depression. It starts with changing my lifestyle. No drinking myself retarded(obvs), no drunk smoking, no destructive habits, eating 100% healthy, and exercising daily. Awesome! Fuck my life basically was what I was thinking when he was telling me this. However, I don’t want to be on meds, so I am going to embrace this idea, fuck my life, get over this, and be happy. Its def not going to be easy, but eh? Is life easy, no! so heyyy I have a shot...
its fuckin gametime! not now chief im in the fucking zone! elle is coming back.
heres the my new policies for life.
1. fuck boys, because they all want to fuck you over in some way
2. get the grades, because those can actually take you places
3. party hard, when you get the chance too.
and most importantly, enjoy your life…you’re lucky to have one after all.
forever and always, danielle
1. putting on enough bronzer so that I look like im walking the victorias secret runway at all times
2. teasing my hair high enough to be a dolly parton look alike
3. reeling boys in close enough to smell my purfume then setting them free
4. making any other girl jealous of my life(even though she shouldn’t be)
5. how to get into a bar with a fake id flawlessly
6. how to be fake when I need to, and real at all other times
7. how to live on the wild side of life
8. heartbreak
9. breaking boys hearts and finallly….
10. consuming large amounts of alcohol til you blackout
I would say in my head that those 10 things would be enough to keep me away from whatever organization was helping me to achieve those qualities. However aside from those 10 things that may reinforce the stereotype of a sorority girl…there are many things people wouldn’t consider in their heads when thinking of a sorority.
I also learned…
1. how to be a good friend
2. things not to do, when your supposed to be a good friend
3. sisterhood, being more than just a friend
4. that doing community service brings everyone closer to their heart
5. love
6. boys are just fragments of our lives
7. studying is above all…haha mayyybe
8. never do something you wouldn’t want done to you
9. sorries mean nothing unless they are sincere
10. sorority is just a name for a close group of friends, that no one…and I mean no one will understand unless they are apart of the group.
You may ask…how did this girl gain all this knowledge? Well the truth be told. It came from a long discovery of who I really am. The word stereotype used to get to me…bad. Now, I don’t see it that way. People could stereotype me for just about anything…being white, pretty, ugly, attention, depression, suicidal, the nice girl, dumb, smart, fake, real. The word stereotype was invented in my opinion because some dumb ass was jealous of someone elses life…so in order to make that person mad, he generalized. “Oh well your just that stupid guy who is apart of lamda alpha suckit…I heard all them guys are douches…” In life, hearing those kinds of things said about you hurts. It gets to you. It make you think that you are less than who you are. I know hearing those things about me made me feel that way.
I know anyone who reads my shit knows…I have some serious depression issues. Aside from my heart condition that causes me to have anxiety, the depression I have comes from a more deeper issue than that…my life.
I grew up pretty normal until I was about 11. When I turned 11, my whole world in my eyes fell apart. I watched my dad leave on a business trip and never come home. I watched my mom cry everyday. I later learned he cheated on her 5 years into their mariage, and again the year before he left…up until he left. I literally was clueless on how to feel. I dealt with the pain surrounding me by keeping things inside. Crying was a word I knew of, but the action of crying never was acted out by me. On top of all of this…I left on a trip with my dad during the divorce period once he came back around, and I decided that I didn’t want to be away from home anymore so I begged … and I mean begged my dad to bring me back to my moms place. I thought that my dad was going to be sooo upset with me for asking him to bring me home to mom, but he wasn’t. I couldn’t figure that out. After all was said and done, I figured out why he wasn’t mad. He wanted to catch my mother on a date. He got what he wanted, but he didn’t have the temper to deal with what he wanted. He hit my mom knocked her over, and beat my moms date(almost leaving him lifeless). Violence, abandonment, lost trust, broken love…these are all things that a an 11 yr old should not see or feel, but I did. This is where my depression is rooted. I live in my past. I know im in the future, but the way I approach my life is that the past is gonna repeat itself. I know what you’re thinking…well if you know that, forget it…don’t be depressed and move on with your life. See the thing is, is that I don’t recognize it. These behaviors such as keeping my guard up are self conscious. They happen whether I want them too or not.
I came home this last week from college thinking I was gonna quit. I realized I needed a break when I had a bottle of pills in one hand and the other wiping tears from my eyes. I wanted to just give up. If I died all the horrible feelings that I have been feeling for awhile would just go away. I knew I didn’t want that, but what other choice did I have when I was choking to get words out because I couldn’t breathe. Then I thought…I have a choice to be happy. So I gave it up all at once. I came home to get happy. Little did I know that getting happy wasn’t just that easy. Giving up on all you know and quitting something that is gonna get you far in life like college isnt gonna make you happy. You make you happy. Nobody can make you feel down without your consent. This was my problem. I was letting everyone around me make me feel down.
I guess with depression you have your up and down days. I came home that’s when I really started thinking about my life, and what I could do to better it. I really thought that being in a sorority was stressing me out. However, I have such a loving group of girls who constantly blew my phone up while I was gone to make sure I was alright. Its my actions. I have to take responsibility and account for myself. The common fallacy is this…people like to follow the crowd, and that was just what I was doing. Getting wasted every night, doing everything with everyone else and not doing anything for myself. I need to love and be apart of my sorority, but learn to separate myself and get better.
Another thing that stressed me out completely, was AMR and WB. They constantly made fun of me for being a sorority girl, and maybe I am in certain ways, but that def is not all that I am. I am a good person with a good heart, and I was raised by the best mom in the entire world. I AM MORE THAN JUST A SORORITY GIRL. I don’t need them to constantly make fun of greek life. They most likely are just jealous they don’t understand it, or they are not apart of it. Anyways, fuck them on that situation…even though I love them dearly as friends.
Speaking of them, they prob saved my life a little when it came to fall semester. I was barreling myself down to the bottom with this dep/anx. It was horrible. I drank almost everyday, and ran myself into the ground. It was not until I reunited with all 3 of the boys at a bar that I realized I needed to be better than that.
Right now…my course of action is not about boys however. Its about happiness. I am totally reverting my life to get on the right track. I want to think happy, be happy, and act happy. All of which is gonna take some time, but I think I know how to get to the point. When I came home I saw my dr. about how seriously down I have been, and he is the man let me tell you. He put me on this natural plan to overcome depression. It starts with changing my lifestyle. No drinking myself retarded(obvs), no drunk smoking, no destructive habits, eating 100% healthy, and exercising daily. Awesome! Fuck my life basically was what I was thinking when he was telling me this. However, I don’t want to be on meds, so I am going to embrace this idea, fuck my life, get over this, and be happy. Its def not going to be easy, but eh? Is life easy, no! so heyyy I have a shot...
its fuckin gametime! not now chief im in the fucking zone! elle is coming back.
heres the my new policies for life.
1. fuck boys, because they all want to fuck you over in some way
2. get the grades, because those can actually take you places
3. party hard, when you get the chance too.
and most importantly, enjoy your life…you’re lucky to have one after all.
forever and always, danielle
Saturday, February 13, 2010
One things for sure...You dont have to worry.
This weekend is Valentines weekend…for the first time in awhile I don’t feel anxious about it. I thought it would be worse because of my single social status I have rightfully claimed, but its not. Its actually refreshing to know a few things I wont be doing on this hallmark holiday compared to previous ones. While I am sitting wherever I may be…I wont have to be worried about the spontaneousness of someone else surprising me, or me surprising them. I also wont have to worry about corking my body into a sexy piece of lingerie to seduce someone, or getting whipped cream eaten off me like Im a dessert. Its completely life altering to endure a single Valentines day experience. Instead of calling it Valentines day, Im came up with a few names of my own.
1. Very Happy I don’t have a Boyfriend Day!
2. Independent Woman Day!
3. Candy Hearts, my ass! Day
5. Screw you hallmark! Day
6. Boycotting lingerie Day
7. Single and loving it Day
8. Happy to be me Day
9. Bottle of Wine Day
10. Who needs a guy anyways Day
Forever and Always, Danielle
1. Very Happy I don’t have a Boyfriend Day!
2. Independent Woman Day!
3. Candy Hearts, my ass! Day
5. Screw you hallmark! Day
6. Boycotting lingerie Day
7. Single and loving it Day
8. Happy to be me Day
9. Bottle of Wine Day
10. Who needs a guy anyways Day
Forever and Always, Danielle
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
boom boom pow, that bitch be jocking my style.
If I had a penny for every time I felt like a dumb ass girl...I would be rich. It seems to me that I am just incompetent. Boys, school, life, anything. I just dont get the concept of it all apparently. Currently, I am listening to sad depressing music and writing lyrics. I swear Im not emo;) Short post, but thats what is on my mind:/
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Its been awhile...
With the start of classes for the quarter beginning, and all the busy stuff going on in my life i have not had time to blog. So many things have happened, but i wouldnt have it any other way. You know that time in your life...everybody has felt this feeling before...When you just sit back and watch life spin around you at 309749869863 miles an hour, and the only thing you can do is smile. Ive been doing a lot of that lately. Things are just going where they want to go, end of story.
Sorority life is back in full swing:) A TG tonight with Theta Chi makes me ohhhhh sooooo happy. I am so glad to be back, but at the same time I am finding that balancing my time has become a chaos. The New Years resolution states that I will only drink on weekends, I will work out everyday, I will do well in school...thats A LOT to live up too. I feel like Cait and I are becoming extremely distant:( Thats sad, since we spent everyday together last quarter. The only thing I can come up with is this is a new chapter of my life, and theres a reason why that is happening.
Best Buy, or something else...haha. The first day of classes I decided...fuck my 17 inch I weigh more than anything in the world laptop, Im buying a new smaller one. So AMR and KDK took me to BestBuy to help me shop. I felt bad because the roads were awful, but we made it just fine. So were there looking around, and my original plan was to buy a netbook. They are smaller than a book, and that would have been fabulous, but I found a 13 inch Toshiba regular laptop...I didnt know what to do. I decided to walk the store pondering my decision. AMR and I were traveling all around as I am the most indecisive person in this world. I couldnt pick what I want if my life depended on it. Haha. Well we were traveling in the tv area(Andys place, lol)when my mind started drifting off my decision of buying a computer to thinking about me and him. KDK approached us, he was not happy. I felt really bad, KDK always feels alienated when the three of us venture out together. Im gonna have to fix that:) I dont want to lose him. KDK walked away, and thats when word vomit came up..."I think I want to be your girlfriend." I said to AMR. "We this is something were gonna have to talk about." he said. Good. I finally said what I wanted too.
That night...it was official. I thought I didnt want a boyfriend, because of all the stress of sorority life, and AMR's ex, and all the drama that surrounds...but I do. He makes me the happiest person when Im around him, I dont want to lose him. There has to be a way for me to do both:) I hope he can deal with me being stubborn;) The only problem is...I have serious trust issues. I am soooo scared to fall in love again, it has broke me too many times. I have such bad anxiety, I just hope I can let my guard down.
PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR! Sooooo tis the season to be looking for a new place to love for next school year, and I Danielle WILL NOT SPEND ANOTHER YEAR IN ALPHA PHI SORORITY HOUSE! Im done. I absolutely cannot stand all the rules, I am 20 yrs old, and a junior in college, I do what I want! haha, but seriously. Anyways, because of my bestest friend KDK we decided next year were gonna kick it. Whether we find a 4 bdrm and all of us WB, AMR, KDK, and myself live together, or we find a 2 bdrm and just KDK and I. We will figure it out. Living all together poses one problem...AMR and I are official now, so technically I would be living with my significant other. You see, for most girls...this would be an issue. For me, not so much. Im a pretty laid back chick, and AMR is the same in a guys form, I dont really see much going wrong. I think next year will be one great time if it really does work out. We found this great 4brdrm place in Georgetown, but we wont know if we can live there until April:/ We will see what happens.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. Had a panic attack last night...not quite sure why? Im so glad KDK was here, I was freaking. I fucking hate them. Panic attacks feel like death, and Im soooo happy right now. I just need to stop thinking all together:)
Sorority life is back in full swing:) A TG tonight with Theta Chi makes me ohhhhh sooooo happy. I am so glad to be back, but at the same time I am finding that balancing my time has become a chaos. The New Years resolution states that I will only drink on weekends, I will work out everyday, I will do well in school...thats A LOT to live up too. I feel like Cait and I are becoming extremely distant:( Thats sad, since we spent everyday together last quarter. The only thing I can come up with is this is a new chapter of my life, and theres a reason why that is happening.
Best Buy, or something else...haha. The first day of classes I decided...fuck my 17 inch I weigh more than anything in the world laptop, Im buying a new smaller one. So AMR and KDK took me to BestBuy to help me shop. I felt bad because the roads were awful, but we made it just fine. So were there looking around, and my original plan was to buy a netbook. They are smaller than a book, and that would have been fabulous, but I found a 13 inch Toshiba regular laptop...I didnt know what to do. I decided to walk the store pondering my decision. AMR and I were traveling all around as I am the most indecisive person in this world. I couldnt pick what I want if my life depended on it. Haha. Well we were traveling in the tv area(Andys place, lol)when my mind started drifting off my decision of buying a computer to thinking about me and him. KDK approached us, he was not happy. I felt really bad, KDK always feels alienated when the three of us venture out together. Im gonna have to fix that:) I dont want to lose him. KDK walked away, and thats when word vomit came up..."I think I want to be your girlfriend." I said to AMR. "We this is something were gonna have to talk about." he said. Good. I finally said what I wanted too.
That night...it was official. I thought I didnt want a boyfriend, because of all the stress of sorority life, and AMR's ex, and all the drama that surrounds...but I do. He makes me the happiest person when Im around him, I dont want to lose him. There has to be a way for me to do both:) I hope he can deal with me being stubborn;) The only problem is...I have serious trust issues. I am soooo scared to fall in love again, it has broke me too many times. I have such bad anxiety, I just hope I can let my guard down.
PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR! Sooooo tis the season to be looking for a new place to love for next school year, and I Danielle WILL NOT SPEND ANOTHER YEAR IN ALPHA PHI SORORITY HOUSE! Im done. I absolutely cannot stand all the rules, I am 20 yrs old, and a junior in college, I do what I want! haha, but seriously. Anyways, because of my bestest friend KDK we decided next year were gonna kick it. Whether we find a 4 bdrm and all of us WB, AMR, KDK, and myself live together, or we find a 2 bdrm and just KDK and I. We will figure it out. Living all together poses one problem...AMR and I are official now, so technically I would be living with my significant other. You see, for most girls...this would be an issue. For me, not so much. Im a pretty laid back chick, and AMR is the same in a guys form, I dont really see much going wrong. I think next year will be one great time if it really does work out. We found this great 4brdrm place in Georgetown, but we wont know if we can live there until April:/ We will see what happens.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. Had a panic attack last night...not quite sure why? Im so glad KDK was here, I was freaking. I fucking hate them. Panic attacks feel like death, and Im soooo happy right now. I just need to stop thinking all together:)
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Happy Fucking New Year! WTF is total?
New Years turned out to be better than I imagined even though we didnt venture to NYC. We went out shopping, and made our own rocking new years eve party right here in Columbus, Ohio. Let me just put it this way...I only made it to see the ball drop because of AMR. About five minutes or shortly after the ball the dropped I was passed out on the floor of KDK's room. Lovely...I guess that goes to show I cannot keep up with a 250 lb man. FML!
If you or anyone else thinks this night went down drama free, you are saddly mistake. There was plenty of drama to fill anyones hearts with desire. Where to begin...?
First of all, it sucked going into the night because my friend AMRs ex thinks we are dating. AC(ex) got my number.I just wanted him to be happy with her. So I told him that...I think it made him mad, but I was just being honest. Anyways, the night prevailed. I thought it was pretty funny that all of AMR's brothers were telling me to please give AMR a shot because they liked me better than her. Although its nice to be liked, I dont want to take over anyones place. I am me, I deserve my own place in someones life...not someone elses.
To add to drama gate 2009, shortly after the bringing in of the new year I passed out on KDK's floor like I said. Im not sure of the kind of drama that went down, because I was out for the count, but I know AMR and KDK got into it. First of all, they were both drunk. Second of all, both of them have separate feelings for me. Finally, I love them both to death so them arguing is just hilarious. Boys will be boys. That was the least of my worries.
somebody started texting me around 3am? Yep, AC. I mean this girl doesnt stop...Im sitting right next to AMR as she is blowing my phone up. I was getting pissed, but its whatevs. I always try to stay classy so I was being extremely nice to her. I just kept thinking to myself we are never gonna date. I can like this boy all I want, but Im never gonna be able to get over the whole situation. AMR starts texting her to get her to leave me alone, and it worked thank god. He was being a complete ass to her it was sooo funny. Theres this youtube video that we he and I always watch together about this guy with tourettes...so we quote it constantly. Especially the line where he is talking about total cereal. It came to a point where he texted her the line, "DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT TOTAL!" I was dying inside. The best text response ever on her part, "WTF IS TOTAL!?" Epic.
After all the drama had settled, I was laying close to AMR. I wanted him to know that I was not gonna go anywhere when school started. I know he has this fear that as soon as school starts up again that I am gonna go back to my sorority life and completely forget about him. #1.Im not an a-hole #2. I like him #3. That would be really hard to do. So I told him how I felt. I think he appreciated it. One question is up in the air though. Are we dating? After I told him that, I thought about it for the longest time. I dont want to rush anything at all. Its whatever he wants. Additionally, I dont want to replace AC. That would be outlandish, ridic, and painful in the end. Not worth it. I guess I might want to figure this out.
Overall, I think I had a pretty great New Years. There are many things I would like to remember and forget about 2009. All I can say is I am going to take those times that I always want with me, and hold them close. As for everything else that I never want to think about again...that is getting left in 2009. Im looking for to spending 2010 the best I can.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. New Years Resolution
1. Run a 1/2 marathon by July
2. 4.0 gpa goal for the next 2 quarters
3. kick the habit of smoking
4. drinking excessively is in the past(hopefully)or it will be
5. finding one person i cant live without and making them mine
cheers!
If you or anyone else thinks this night went down drama free, you are saddly mistake. There was plenty of drama to fill anyones hearts with desire. Where to begin...?
First of all, it sucked going into the night because my friend AMRs ex thinks we are dating. AC(ex) got my number.I just wanted him to be happy with her. So I told him that...I think it made him mad, but I was just being honest. Anyways, the night prevailed. I thought it was pretty funny that all of AMR's brothers were telling me to please give AMR a shot because they liked me better than her. Although its nice to be liked, I dont want to take over anyones place. I am me, I deserve my own place in someones life...not someone elses.
To add to drama gate 2009, shortly after the bringing in of the new year I passed out on KDK's floor like I said. Im not sure of the kind of drama that went down, because I was out for the count, but I know AMR and KDK got into it. First of all, they were both drunk. Second of all, both of them have separate feelings for me. Finally, I love them both to death so them arguing is just hilarious. Boys will be boys. That was the least of my worries.
somebody started texting me around 3am? Yep, AC. I mean this girl doesnt stop...Im sitting right next to AMR as she is blowing my phone up. I was getting pissed, but its whatevs. I always try to stay classy so I was being extremely nice to her. I just kept thinking to myself we are never gonna date. I can like this boy all I want, but Im never gonna be able to get over the whole situation. AMR starts texting her to get her to leave me alone, and it worked thank god. He was being a complete ass to her it was sooo funny. Theres this youtube video that we he and I always watch together about this guy with tourettes...so we quote it constantly. Especially the line where he is talking about total cereal. It came to a point where he texted her the line, "DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT TOTAL!" I was dying inside. The best text response ever on her part, "WTF IS TOTAL!?" Epic.
After all the drama had settled, I was laying close to AMR. I wanted him to know that I was not gonna go anywhere when school started. I know he has this fear that as soon as school starts up again that I am gonna go back to my sorority life and completely forget about him. #1.Im not an a-hole #2. I like him #3. That would be really hard to do. So I told him how I felt. I think he appreciated it. One question is up in the air though. Are we dating? After I told him that, I thought about it for the longest time. I dont want to rush anything at all. Its whatever he wants. Additionally, I dont want to replace AC. That would be outlandish, ridic, and painful in the end. Not worth it. I guess I might want to figure this out.
Overall, I think I had a pretty great New Years. There are many things I would like to remember and forget about 2009. All I can say is I am going to take those times that I always want with me, and hold them close. As for everything else that I never want to think about again...that is getting left in 2009. Im looking for to spending 2010 the best I can.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. New Years Resolution
1. Run a 1/2 marathon by July
2. 4.0 gpa goal for the next 2 quarters
3. kick the habit of smoking
4. drinking excessively is in the past(hopefully)or it will be
5. finding one person i cant live without and making them mine
cheers!
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