Its been awhile...

With the start of classes for the quarter beginning, and all the busy stuff going on in my life i have not had time to blog. So many things have happened, but i wouldnt have it any other way. You know that time in your life...everybody has felt this feeling before...When you just sit back and watch life spin around you at 309749869863 miles an hour, and the only thing you can do is smile. Ive been doing a lot of that lately. Things are just going where they want to go, end of story.

Sorority life is back in full swing:) A TG tonight with Theta Chi makes me ohhhhh sooooo happy. I am so glad to be back, but at the same time I am finding that balancing my time has become a chaos. The New Years resolution states that I will only drink on weekends, I will work out everyday, I will do well in school...thats A LOT to live up too. I feel like Cait and I are becoming extremely distant:( Thats sad, since we spent everyday together last quarter. The only thing I can come up with is this is a new chapter of my life, and theres a reason why that is happening.

Best Buy, or something else...haha. The first day of classes I decided...fuck my 17 inch I weigh more than anything in the world laptop, Im buying a new smaller one. So AMR and KDK took me to BestBuy to help me shop. I felt bad because the roads were awful, but we made it just fine. So were there looking around, and my original plan was to buy a netbook. They are smaller than a book, and that would have been fabulous, but I found a 13 inch Toshiba regular laptop...I didnt know what to do. I decided to walk the store pondering my decision. AMR and I were traveling all around as I am the most indecisive person in this world. I couldnt pick what I want if my life depended on it. Haha. Well we were traveling in the tv area(Andys place, lol)when my mind started drifting off my decision of buying a computer to thinking about me and him. KDK approached us, he was not happy. I felt really bad, KDK always feels alienated when the three of us venture out together. Im gonna have to fix that:) I dont want to lose him. KDK walked away, and thats when word vomit came up..."I think I want to be your girlfriend." I said to AMR. "We this is something were gonna have to talk about." he said. Good. I finally said what I wanted too.

That night...it was official. I thought I didnt want a boyfriend, because of all the stress of sorority life, and AMR's ex, and all the drama that surrounds...but I do. He makes me the happiest person when Im around him, I dont want to lose him. There has to be a way for me to do both:) I hope he can deal with me being stubborn;) The only problem is...I have serious trust issues. I am soooo scared to fall in love again, it has broke me too many times. I have such bad anxiety, I just hope I can let my guard down.

PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR! Sooooo tis the season to be looking for a new place to love for next school year, and I Danielle WILL NOT SPEND ANOTHER YEAR IN ALPHA PHI SORORITY HOUSE! Im done. I absolutely cannot stand all the rules, I am 20 yrs old, and a junior in college, I do what I want! haha, but seriously. Anyways, because of my bestest friend KDK we decided next year were gonna kick it. Whether we find a 4 bdrm and all of us WB, AMR, KDK, and myself live together, or we find a 2 bdrm and just KDK and I. We will figure it out. Living all together poses one problem...AMR and I are official now, so technically I would be living with my significant other. You see, for most girls...this would be an issue. For me, not so much. Im a pretty laid back chick, and AMR is the same in a guys form, I dont really see much going wrong. I think next year will be one great time if it really does work out. We found this great 4brdrm place in Georgetown, but we wont know if we can live there until April:/ We will see what happens.

Forever and Always, Danielle

P.S. Had a panic attack last night...not quite sure why? Im so glad KDK was here, I was freaking. I fucking hate them. Panic attacks feel like death, and Im soooo happy right now. I just need to stop thinking all together:)