Friday, January 15, 2010
boom boom pow, that bitch be jocking my style.
If I had a penny for every time I felt like a dumb ass girl...I would be rich. It seems to me that I am just incompetent. Boys, school, life, anything. I just dont get the concept of it all apparently. Currently, I am listening to sad depressing music and writing lyrics. I swear Im not emo;) Short post, but thats what is on my mind:/
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Its been awhile...
With the start of classes for the quarter beginning, and all the busy stuff going on in my life i have not had time to blog. So many things have happened, but i wouldnt have it any other way. You know that time in your life...everybody has felt this feeling before...When you just sit back and watch life spin around you at 309749869863 miles an hour, and the only thing you can do is smile. Ive been doing a lot of that lately. Things are just going where they want to go, end of story.
Sorority life is back in full swing:) A TG tonight with Theta Chi makes me ohhhhh sooooo happy. I am so glad to be back, but at the same time I am finding that balancing my time has become a chaos. The New Years resolution states that I will only drink on weekends, I will work out everyday, I will do well in school...thats A LOT to live up too. I feel like Cait and I are becoming extremely distant:( Thats sad, since we spent everyday together last quarter. The only thing I can come up with is this is a new chapter of my life, and theres a reason why that is happening.
Best Buy, or something else...haha. The first day of classes I decided...fuck my 17 inch I weigh more than anything in the world laptop, Im buying a new smaller one. So AMR and KDK took me to BestBuy to help me shop. I felt bad because the roads were awful, but we made it just fine. So were there looking around, and my original plan was to buy a netbook. They are smaller than a book, and that would have been fabulous, but I found a 13 inch Toshiba regular laptop...I didnt know what to do. I decided to walk the store pondering my decision. AMR and I were traveling all around as I am the most indecisive person in this world. I couldnt pick what I want if my life depended on it. Haha. Well we were traveling in the tv area(Andys place, lol)when my mind started drifting off my decision of buying a computer to thinking about me and him. KDK approached us, he was not happy. I felt really bad, KDK always feels alienated when the three of us venture out together. Im gonna have to fix that:) I dont want to lose him. KDK walked away, and thats when word vomit came up..."I think I want to be your girlfriend." I said to AMR. "We this is something were gonna have to talk about." he said. Good. I finally said what I wanted too.
That night...it was official. I thought I didnt want a boyfriend, because of all the stress of sorority life, and AMR's ex, and all the drama that surrounds...but I do. He makes me the happiest person when Im around him, I dont want to lose him. There has to be a way for me to do both:) I hope he can deal with me being stubborn;) The only problem is...I have serious trust issues. I am soooo scared to fall in love again, it has broke me too many times. I have such bad anxiety, I just hope I can let my guard down.
PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR! Sooooo tis the season to be looking for a new place to love for next school year, and I Danielle WILL NOT SPEND ANOTHER YEAR IN ALPHA PHI SORORITY HOUSE! Im done. I absolutely cannot stand all the rules, I am 20 yrs old, and a junior in college, I do what I want! haha, but seriously. Anyways, because of my bestest friend KDK we decided next year were gonna kick it. Whether we find a 4 bdrm and all of us WB, AMR, KDK, and myself live together, or we find a 2 bdrm and just KDK and I. We will figure it out. Living all together poses one problem...AMR and I are official now, so technically I would be living with my significant other. You see, for most girls...this would be an issue. For me, not so much. Im a pretty laid back chick, and AMR is the same in a guys form, I dont really see much going wrong. I think next year will be one great time if it really does work out. We found this great 4brdrm place in Georgetown, but we wont know if we can live there until April:/ We will see what happens.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. Had a panic attack last night...not quite sure why? Im so glad KDK was here, I was freaking. I fucking hate them. Panic attacks feel like death, and Im soooo happy right now. I just need to stop thinking all together:)
Sorority life is back in full swing:) A TG tonight with Theta Chi makes me ohhhhh sooooo happy. I am so glad to be back, but at the same time I am finding that balancing my time has become a chaos. The New Years resolution states that I will only drink on weekends, I will work out everyday, I will do well in school...thats A LOT to live up too. I feel like Cait and I are becoming extremely distant:( Thats sad, since we spent everyday together last quarter. The only thing I can come up with is this is a new chapter of my life, and theres a reason why that is happening.
Best Buy, or something else...haha. The first day of classes I decided...fuck my 17 inch I weigh more than anything in the world laptop, Im buying a new smaller one. So AMR and KDK took me to BestBuy to help me shop. I felt bad because the roads were awful, but we made it just fine. So were there looking around, and my original plan was to buy a netbook. They are smaller than a book, and that would have been fabulous, but I found a 13 inch Toshiba regular laptop...I didnt know what to do. I decided to walk the store pondering my decision. AMR and I were traveling all around as I am the most indecisive person in this world. I couldnt pick what I want if my life depended on it. Haha. Well we were traveling in the tv area(Andys place, lol)when my mind started drifting off my decision of buying a computer to thinking about me and him. KDK approached us, he was not happy. I felt really bad, KDK always feels alienated when the three of us venture out together. Im gonna have to fix that:) I dont want to lose him. KDK walked away, and thats when word vomit came up..."I think I want to be your girlfriend." I said to AMR. "We this is something were gonna have to talk about." he said. Good. I finally said what I wanted too.
That night...it was official. I thought I didnt want a boyfriend, because of all the stress of sorority life, and AMR's ex, and all the drama that surrounds...but I do. He makes me the happiest person when Im around him, I dont want to lose him. There has to be a way for me to do both:) I hope he can deal with me being stubborn;) The only problem is...I have serious trust issues. I am soooo scared to fall in love again, it has broke me too many times. I have such bad anxiety, I just hope I can let my guard down.
PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR! Sooooo tis the season to be looking for a new place to love for next school year, and I Danielle WILL NOT SPEND ANOTHER YEAR IN ALPHA PHI SORORITY HOUSE! Im done. I absolutely cannot stand all the rules, I am 20 yrs old, and a junior in college, I do what I want! haha, but seriously. Anyways, because of my bestest friend KDK we decided next year were gonna kick it. Whether we find a 4 bdrm and all of us WB, AMR, KDK, and myself live together, or we find a 2 bdrm and just KDK and I. We will figure it out. Living all together poses one problem...AMR and I are official now, so technically I would be living with my significant other. You see, for most girls...this would be an issue. For me, not so much. Im a pretty laid back chick, and AMR is the same in a guys form, I dont really see much going wrong. I think next year will be one great time if it really does work out. We found this great 4brdrm place in Georgetown, but we wont know if we can live there until April:/ We will see what happens.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. Had a panic attack last night...not quite sure why? Im so glad KDK was here, I was freaking. I fucking hate them. Panic attacks feel like death, and Im soooo happy right now. I just need to stop thinking all together:)
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Happy Fucking New Year! WTF is total?
New Years turned out to be better than I imagined even though we didnt venture to NYC. We went out shopping, and made our own rocking new years eve party right here in Columbus, Ohio. Let me just put it this way...I only made it to see the ball drop because of AMR. About five minutes or shortly after the ball the dropped I was passed out on the floor of KDK's room. Lovely...I guess that goes to show I cannot keep up with a 250 lb man. FML!
If you or anyone else thinks this night went down drama free, you are saddly mistake. There was plenty of drama to fill anyones hearts with desire. Where to begin...?
First of all, it sucked going into the night because my friend AMRs ex thinks we are dating. AC(ex) got my number.I just wanted him to be happy with her. So I told him that...I think it made him mad, but I was just being honest. Anyways, the night prevailed. I thought it was pretty funny that all of AMR's brothers were telling me to please give AMR a shot because they liked me better than her. Although its nice to be liked, I dont want to take over anyones place. I am me, I deserve my own place in someones life...not someone elses.
To add to drama gate 2009, shortly after the bringing in of the new year I passed out on KDK's floor like I said. Im not sure of the kind of drama that went down, because I was out for the count, but I know AMR and KDK got into it. First of all, they were both drunk. Second of all, both of them have separate feelings for me. Finally, I love them both to death so them arguing is just hilarious. Boys will be boys. That was the least of my worries.
somebody started texting me around 3am? Yep, AC. I mean this girl doesnt stop...Im sitting right next to AMR as she is blowing my phone up. I was getting pissed, but its whatevs. I always try to stay classy so I was being extremely nice to her. I just kept thinking to myself we are never gonna date. I can like this boy all I want, but Im never gonna be able to get over the whole situation. AMR starts texting her to get her to leave me alone, and it worked thank god. He was being a complete ass to her it was sooo funny. Theres this youtube video that we he and I always watch together about this guy with tourettes...so we quote it constantly. Especially the line where he is talking about total cereal. It came to a point where he texted her the line, "DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT TOTAL!" I was dying inside. The best text response ever on her part, "WTF IS TOTAL!?" Epic.
After all the drama had settled, I was laying close to AMR. I wanted him to know that I was not gonna go anywhere when school started. I know he has this fear that as soon as school starts up again that I am gonna go back to my sorority life and completely forget about him. #1.Im not an a-hole #2. I like him #3. That would be really hard to do. So I told him how I felt. I think he appreciated it. One question is up in the air though. Are we dating? After I told him that, I thought about it for the longest time. I dont want to rush anything at all. Its whatever he wants. Additionally, I dont want to replace AC. That would be outlandish, ridic, and painful in the end. Not worth it. I guess I might want to figure this out.
Overall, I think I had a pretty great New Years. There are many things I would like to remember and forget about 2009. All I can say is I am going to take those times that I always want with me, and hold them close. As for everything else that I never want to think about again...that is getting left in 2009. Im looking for to spending 2010 the best I can.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. New Years Resolution
1. Run a 1/2 marathon by July
2. 4.0 gpa goal for the next 2 quarters
3. kick the habit of smoking
4. drinking excessively is in the past(hopefully)or it will be
5. finding one person i cant live without and making them mine
cheers!
If you or anyone else thinks this night went down drama free, you are saddly mistake. There was plenty of drama to fill anyones hearts with desire. Where to begin...?
First of all, it sucked going into the night because my friend AMRs ex thinks we are dating. AC(ex) got my number.I just wanted him to be happy with her. So I told him that...I think it made him mad, but I was just being honest. Anyways, the night prevailed. I thought it was pretty funny that all of AMR's brothers were telling me to please give AMR a shot because they liked me better than her. Although its nice to be liked, I dont want to take over anyones place. I am me, I deserve my own place in someones life...not someone elses.
To add to drama gate 2009, shortly after the bringing in of the new year I passed out on KDK's floor like I said. Im not sure of the kind of drama that went down, because I was out for the count, but I know AMR and KDK got into it. First of all, they were both drunk. Second of all, both of them have separate feelings for me. Finally, I love them both to death so them arguing is just hilarious. Boys will be boys. That was the least of my worries.
somebody started texting me around 3am? Yep, AC. I mean this girl doesnt stop...Im sitting right next to AMR as she is blowing my phone up. I was getting pissed, but its whatevs. I always try to stay classy so I was being extremely nice to her. I just kept thinking to myself we are never gonna date. I can like this boy all I want, but Im never gonna be able to get over the whole situation. AMR starts texting her to get her to leave me alone, and it worked thank god. He was being a complete ass to her it was sooo funny. Theres this youtube video that we he and I always watch together about this guy with tourettes...so we quote it constantly. Especially the line where he is talking about total cereal. It came to a point where he texted her the line, "DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT TOTAL!" I was dying inside. The best text response ever on her part, "WTF IS TOTAL!?" Epic.
After all the drama had settled, I was laying close to AMR. I wanted him to know that I was not gonna go anywhere when school started. I know he has this fear that as soon as school starts up again that I am gonna go back to my sorority life and completely forget about him. #1.Im not an a-hole #2. I like him #3. That would be really hard to do. So I told him how I felt. I think he appreciated it. One question is up in the air though. Are we dating? After I told him that, I thought about it for the longest time. I dont want to rush anything at all. Its whatever he wants. Additionally, I dont want to replace AC. That would be outlandish, ridic, and painful in the end. Not worth it. I guess I might want to figure this out.
Overall, I think I had a pretty great New Years. There are many things I would like to remember and forget about 2009. All I can say is I am going to take those times that I always want with me, and hold them close. As for everything else that I never want to think about again...that is getting left in 2009. Im looking for to spending 2010 the best I can.
Forever and Always, Danielle
P.S. New Years Resolution
1. Run a 1/2 marathon by July
2. 4.0 gpa goal for the next 2 quarters
3. kick the habit of smoking
4. drinking excessively is in the past(hopefully)or it will be
5. finding one person i cant live without and making them mine
cheers!
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